This is not an easy week for me. Not only am I dealing with the usual load of crap I have to put up with from both of my jobs, but this Friday marks 5 years. Five years since my friend Kevin died in a car accident his last semester in college. Sigh, I can't believe it's been 5 years already. God, where did the time go? It still feels like it was yesterday. I can just as easily recall every emotion I had in the minute after my dad told me he was gone. I remember coming back to my apartment on campus from a band trip and seeing the Saturn parked outside, thinking, "Wow, that looks like my parents car". I remember walking in and seeing my dad and my godfather sitting on the couch and just breezing into my bedroom to drop all of my bags like I had all of the time in the world. I remember sitting down on the cheesy dorm furniture when my dad told me what happened and then the next 2 days I remember absolutely nothing except for the funeral itself. That, is the only thing that stands out in my head. That and the dreams I had about Kev for the couple of days after. I'd like to think it was him trying to tell me good bye.

So this year, on Oct. 5, I'll probably make some time to go out to the cemetary and leave some flowers. Have a little talk with my friend. I miss him so much it is just indescribable. He was like my brother, we practically grew up together. His parents are still people I consider to be one of my other pair of parents ( I seem to have several). I still try to stay in touch with his younger brother Casey, who I consider to be just like the brother I never had. Sigh, like I said, it's not going to be an easy week.

Also just found out my friend Brent is heading to Costa Rica for a year to study monkeys. He sounds thrilled, and I am happy for him, but it seems like he just got back from the Peace Corps! Oh well, if all goes my way I won't be around here much longer myself. Found 4 jobs I'm sending resume's out to this week. The one I would like the most is in Nashua, N.H. I don't know why but I keep finding myself drawn to New England as far as job searches go. Go figure. I don't want to jinx it by talking about it too much but it is almost exactly what I do now here at the paper, sooooo.....

That's about all. Not much else exciting is happening. Story of my life. Probably watch Cal's last game on Saturday, should be interesting. Very bitter sweet I would think.

Good night. Sleep tight. Don't let the bedbugs bite.