Been holding my breath today. More than likely will be very much on edge tomorrow too. My parents are supposed to be going away together. Just the two of them. Knowing my father's history of backing out at the last minute and the round of crying phone calls I usually get it is any wonder I'm on edge? Sigh. For Mom's sake I hope dad is serious about this whole reconciliation thing. He was supposed to have moved back in a week or so ago. From little bits and pieces of conversation with my mother and sister, I'm gathering he has not. I just don't get it. How can a person throw away a relationship of over 30 years just like that?! Not only is my parent's relationship hanging by a thread but my dad and I have not been the same since this whole mid life crisis thing started. I'll admit it, I was a daddy's girl. While I was growing up, my father could do no wrong. When I was in college we talked at least 2 or 3 times a week. Now, I'm lucky if I talk to him once a month. The trust is just gone. If I were in my mother's shoes, he would have been kicked to the curb a long time ago. Sigh. She's got way more patience than I do. Any wonder I am such a commitmentphobe?

One week and counting. This time next week I will be in the air, on my way to Ireland. This will definitely be the trip of a lifetime. Even better is the possibility that I could be going back in March! Bob and some of his friends from college asked me if I wanted to join them over St. Patricks day week. How cool would that be! Only problem is the whole money issue. I'm practically sending myself to the poorhouse with the trip next week. Sigh. As god is my witness I'll find a way!

Can't wait to see The Recruit. Not only does it look like a good movie, but Colin Farrell is in it. Woo baby, what a hottie. That accent is just, well...very nice. Those eyes. Hmmmm, very nice.

Excuse me while I go get a cold glass of water.