Yeah, I think I definitely like this layout a little better. The last one was too constricting. Like underwear that's too small.

Went back to journaling my food today. It was a habit I was very into when I was still doing L.A. Weight Loss. Of course, it only worked as long as I was honest. Towards the end of my plan when I was getting sick of the whole thing (having to trek across town for meetings, the condescending attitude of the new people there, etc.) I used to fib on my journal. For instance, if I had a bagel with cream cheese in the morning it became two pieces of lite bread (40 cal each) with I Can't Believe It's Not Butter Spread (considered a "free" food). Voila, something that should have been my starches for two days was now just my two starches for the day. Sigh. I do understand I need to do this the correct way of course if I want to drop any weight again. And I need to. I'm painfully aware of the pounds that found their sneaky way back onto my body. Bastards.

Was reading The Dietchick today, like I do everyday and started reading some of the comments posted in the comments section. There was a little controversy going on about what someone said about someone else on another blog and blah, blah, blah. The whole thing was just way out of hand. But I digress. The whole point of these things is for support. Sharing our struggle with our weight the way some people do with quitting drinking or smoking. Not to rip each other apart. A large part of is jealousy. People afraid to see other people doing better than them at something. Can't we all just get along?!

As soon as I figure out how to get it posted, I'll start putting my food journal on the old blogspot too. For now I'm just writing down what I'm eating and when so I can keep track for the next week of what I'm putting into my mouth that may be not so good (like the handful of M&M's and the Snickers bar I ate today). Then again, it does feel good to see the good choices I've been making too. Like the apple I had this morning between breakfast and lunch instead of the cake someone put in the break room. I was very proud of my moment of will power.

I think I'm going to blow off open hockey tomorrow night. We start officially practicing as a team on Wednesday anyway so its not like I'm giving up an entire week with out it. O.k., so I am, but darn it I need time for myself too! My friend Kristen and I are going to go hang out. Maybe do dinner and catch a movie or go grab a drink somewhere. I don't know. I haven't done that very often lately and I need a night with my friends every now and then. Besides, my shoulder has been bothering me again. I hope this isn't the start of something bad. God I can be such a worrywart sometimes.