What did I say before? Knowledge is power? Yeah, well, it's also bad. Very bad. PG or Steve, just emailed me. He saw the previous post. Now I have unintentionally hurt someone who does not deserve it. He is one of the sweetest people I've met in a long time. And I went and screwed things up. Even if things progressed with Bob, I think we might have had the potential to become good friends. He just seems like that kind of guy. The kind that I would enjoy hanging out with.

And I blew it. Big time. I'm going to remove my profile. I wasn't as ready for this as a person needs to be. In my reply email to Steve I equated what I did to jumping headfirst into an unfilled concrete pool. Who am I kidding? It isn't fair to other guys for me to go out with them and have a good time until I have some resolution with Bob. This weekend. It needs to happen soon before I go around hurting other people.

I don't mean to but I always screw this stuff up! Maybe I was meant to be alone for the rest of my life. Maybe I'm not good enough to be with anyone. I definitely don't feel like I am.