Wow! You like me, you really like me! Just noticed a major increase in traffic, which can only be chalked up to the addition of my little blog corner of the world to Mr. Helpful's links. I am both flattered and a little flustered by the attention.

Being the center of attention is generally not my thing. I have always been the girl in the background. The one that is always around to help others and maybe push someone else out there, but not really get out there on my own. Probably why my dating life (or lack there of) sucks so much. Guys don't approach me and if they do, well, I usually assume it's to talk to one of my friends. So I fade out. Move into the background. Consider it one of the things I'd like to change about myself.

By the way Monsieur Helpful, the name is Wendy.

With the end of my shift tonight I have off from the Lobster for the next three nights. I'm so excited I can't stand it. Tomorrow night will be spent with the sister and bro-in-law, having dinner at the Harp & Fiddle. Down a few beers. Discuss the family situation.

I haven't touched on it too much in the past few days because, well, I'm not sure what to think anymore. My mother had dinner with my father last Tuesday night where in he managed to explain to her what was going on and why she should give him another chance for about the bazillionth time. She apparantly bought it because now she's talking reconcilliation. Again.

BIG SIGH.

We've been through this drama cycle so many times I can almost predict the next move on my dad's part. He'll be all lovey dovey and want my mom to call him and he'll call her all the time and talk all about moving back into the house and blah, blah, blah. Then he'll go back to his old ways and my mother will be left a blubbering mess that I'll have to pick up the pieces for. I'm so bloody sick of this cycle I could scream. Little sis and I are of the opinion mom should just end it once and for all. I don't know. I don't know what to think anymore.

Had some news the other day someone I know is moving away. Far away. Like to another state far away. Makes me sad for numerous reasons. We promised to keep in touch but I know how that goes. They get bogged down with the every day bits of their life. I'll get bogged down in mine. We probably won't see each other again. And it saddens me. Very much.

Well, on that happy note, I'm off to bed. The insomnia is starting to return and I need to try and force myself to get some sleep.

Maybe I'll have good dreams tonight.