I'm scared and I do not know what to do. As mentioned before, tomorrow is the day my father's lease runs out on the apartment he has been staying in. He told us before that after that he was going to let it go as it was a major drain on my parents finances. What he's going to do is the big question. He could come back, or not. I guess I'm more afraid of what will happen if he decides not to come back. My mother will freak out, my sister will inevitably freak out and I will be stuck in the middle. Somehow, in the pit of my stomach I know he isn't coming back. I think on some level my sister knows it too.

God I don't know what to do. I don't want to be at home tomorrow night. I want to go far, far away from here. Where no one can find me. Where I don't have to deal with this. I never imagined in all of my years of growing up that I would be facing the death of my parents marriage. There are times when I wish this would have happened about 15 or 20 years ago when I didn't have any understanding about any of this. Sigh. I HATE THIS. I hate my father for doing this. I hate that other woman for getting back in my father's life. I hate what this is doing to my mother. I hate what it's done to my sister and I.

Funny how life never turns out the way you expect it to.