I saw his picture tonight. I didn't mean to. A random picture. A face smiling back at me.

Found by total happinstance. Just because I was bored at work and playing around on the internet. Just because I can't keep myself preoccupied in other ways while I'm bored at work. A link, from a link, from a link.

It hurt me more than it should have. I thought I was past it. Beyond it. Moved along like a leaf happily floating along in a creek.

But I was wrong. My heart quivered a little bit in my chest. I felt my stomach jump into my throat. The horrible empty feeling came back again.

Guess I won't get any sleep tonight. All because I saw his picture....